Letter #3

Dear Baby Sister,
hey so last night was pretty tuff huh? trying to get how we feel across and tryingto get her to understand isnt easy. its like having a war with yourself. running around in circles trying so hard and getting no where. it all just leads to frustration, Anger, and the feeling of failure. its no fair.

seems as if alot of things in our life are unfair and hard to understand. but i guess thats what life is. everyone always says lifes unfair. so why sould we thing that is ever going to chance? im really not sure. But that doesnt mean we should give up on her. atleast not yet. because then we are going gto feel even more like failures. we need to keep trying. not tryingt o change her, but trying to understand her. why she does what she does. why she says the things she does. because once we understand that more then maybe things will start changing.

like when she gets stressed out she gets mean. and you know we stress her out alot. we havent been the best to her in our lifes. we have done alot of creul n messed up things just as she has. we have made mistakes just as she has. so maybe we need to appologize to her. tell her that we are sorry for all the pain we have caused to her. maybe that will help her to be able to appologize to us.

i think that will be the first step in trying to make things work. once we are able to appologize to each other and realize what has happened happened and we cant change that. then we will be able to accept each other and build a new relationship. and hopefully make a family. it wont be easy and we are going to have to keep working hard and not give up. but we have to remember we cannot change her, we can only change ourslefs to be able to accept her.

and we can do this. if we can do everything else that we have and be pretty much ok. then we can work together to accept our mom for who she is and not who we want her to be. because face it she will never be this awesome mother that is like a best friend to us. she is who she is and thats ok. we have to let her know that that is ok.

well lil seeeeeeester this is going to be tough but we can do it i know we can!


luv u lil seeeeeeeter

XoXo  ~ Your big Seeeeeeester