Letter #3

Dear Baby Sister,
hey so last night was pretty tuff huh? trying to get how we feel across and tryingto get her to understand isnt easy. its like having a war with yourself. running around in circles trying so hard and getting no where. it all just leads to frustration, Anger, and the feeling of failure. its no fair.

seems as if alot of things in our life are unfair and hard to understand. but i guess thats what life is. everyone always says lifes unfair. so why sould we thing that is ever going to chance? im really not sure. But that doesnt mean we should give up on her. atleast not yet. because then we are going gto feel even more like failures. we need to keep trying. not tryingt o change her, but trying to understand her. why she does what she does. why she says the things she does. because once we understand that more then maybe things will start changing.

like when she gets stressed out she gets mean. and you know we stress her out alot. we havent been the best to her in our lifes. we have done alot of creul n messed up things just as she has. we have made mistakes just as she has. so maybe we need to appologize to her. tell her that we are sorry for all the pain we have caused to her. maybe that will help her to be able to appologize to us.

i think that will be the first step in trying to make things work. once we are able to appologize to each other and realize what has happened happened and we cant change that. then we will be able to accept each other and build a new relationship. and hopefully make a family. it wont be easy and we are going to have to keep working hard and not give up. but we have to remember we cannot change her, we can only change ourslefs to be able to accept her.

and we can do this. if we can do everything else that we have and be pretty much ok. then we can work together to accept our mom for who she is and not who we want her to be. because face it she will never be this awesome mother that is like a best friend to us. she is who she is and thats ok. we have to let her know that that is ok.

well lil seeeeeeester this is going to be tough but we can do it i know we can!


luv u lil seeeeeeeter

XoXo  ~ Your big Seeeeeeester

Letter #2

Dear Baby Sister,

hey lil one, so im really glad i got to spend thanxgiving together. i had alot of fun with you. i think that the last few days were the first days in a long time i have been really happy. i realized how much i really missed you.

i loved being at the school running around with the dogs, playing on the play ground, finding those dinosours. it made me feel like a lil kid again and that was amazing. we had nothing to worry about for that short little time and it was great. and pretending to steal the car on the play ground was fun too.

just getting to finally sit around and talk was fun too. and pretending to smoke bowl cuz probations a bitch. haha.

gawd i missed you. but im glad your back now and you better not do anything to get introuble again cuz then im gunna go to jail for kickin your ass. haha. well find things to do sober. it cant be that hard. like going to the YMCA and tryingto find the worlds greatest ant hill. i dont know but we can do this.

and the terribly funny thing that we did that no one but us, mom, madi, n jesecha knows bout. haha. gawd i swear sometimes we are jus too damn bad. haha. i have taught you well my darling. keep up the good work haha. and when see he sees that the look on his face will be priceless. kodak moment fer shizz. hes got alot comin to him haha. hope hes prepared for it cuz if not hes gunna have a hell ofa time tryin to stay up. but i guess thats how the cookie crumbles.

so i say this was one hellava thanxgiving. i had hella fun. the mostest fun iv had all year haha. i love all our devious little plans to getting the kids back and putting our family back together which is going to happen!!! well get em all back. haha.

well lil seeeeeeester i must go to bed now cuz im exhasted!

goodnyte,

XoXo your bigSeeeeeeeester

Letter #1

Dear Baby Sister,

   hey there girly! so its 2:13am in the morning right now and i decided to make you a blog. kinda like the letters i used to write you and send to you. well i decided to start doing that again only in blog forum. so im going to write a blog for you hopefully every day. i really hope that you enjoy it. 

so as you know you are one of the most important people in my life. we have been threw so much together no doubt bout that. the crazy thing is how we managed to make it through all of that almost in one piece. what doesnt kill us only makes us stronger right? and damn lil sis we are two strong bitches!!! 

im glad i had you as my partner in crime for all these years. we had some pretty good times together. the fun and the extremely fun. yea we've done some pretty stupid things and gotten ourselves into some situations we didnt know if we'd be able to get out of, but we did. we managed to bring out the best in eachother and help each other get out of the deepest darkest holes.

we were there for each other when no one else was. and when it seemed as if everyone else was giving up on us we believed in each other and kept ourselfs going. we took care of each other and taught each other life lessons.

you mean the world to me lil sissy. i have no clue where i would be without you. you have helped me more then you realize. you are my bestfriend and always will be. 

i love you lil seeeeeeeester!!!

XoXo  ~your big seeeeeeeeester!!!!